Do not let me disgust

Tomorrow we will be going to another city, and come back two days later.Because there is cold, and life will be inconvenient, so I do not like to go there, but it is not decided by me.

I can not surf on the internet these two days, can not read my friends' blog, can not write blog.

When a person in a bad mood, the quality of life will drop, capacity will fall, things learned before will become very bad , as I write article now, I am a blank mind.All my previous efforts wasted!!

stew in my own juice

The wrong choice, patience, time and again, I destroyed the brighter future.All pay exchange of any changes, because I chose the wrong.I always pay for some things not worth paying.

Selfish people are always selfish. There are the person who can never be touched by others, because they do not have such feelings cells.In life, feeling is nothing sometimes.

No thought, no understanding, no concern, only selfish, it is ignorance, it is foolish!!!!

Is God really fair?

Calm down

Five months will be passed, I found that my life is very confusing. Because of ideological exclusion, I have been unable to concentrate on doing things, of course, with the result that a lot of work is not done well. I am embarrassed because many of the mistakes in the work. A good start for a person in the unit have great impact, I realize that this is a serious problem.

The problem is my performance has been poor, and sometimes even I can not believe that I will make mistakes that should not be committed.One of the reason is that I can not fully into the present life, it is within my subconscious, I always could not pay attention to what I did, when a very simple matter appears again, I still do not know how to resolve.

I have always been disturbed because of some things outside of work. Other people always fail to see the true face of life. Perhaps these things on others appear to be insignificant, But I seem to be some special circumstances and situation so that I can not but to solve these problems seriously.

When I was suddenly busy, and some other things will be forgotten, so my life is a little worse. One of my colleagues often inconceivable for my performance. He always asked me "What do you think every day?" "What are you thinking? Please concentrate on that!" "Why are you always vague?".

Gosh! Worst work! Worse life!

I need more time

I spented a lot of time to add music player on my blog, I can not find my favorite because no one is fully consistent with my request. shape, pattern, color, function......？？！！！

Every day I was looking for something I can write it down, tell others. But every day is very plain,sitting in the chair from the morning to the night , nothing has happened.

Time is always not enough, and soon I will have to go to sleep, I must get up on time tomorrow morning.

Sleep could ease our pressure,regulate our mood, but couldnot solve the problem.Venting is important,difficulties will still exist,Sometimes we could do nothing about it.

I need more time!!

Colors of the wind

Think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life has a spirit has a name
Think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew
You never knew
Have you ever heard the wolf cry
To the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth
The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle in a hoop that never ends
Have you ever heard the wolf cry
To the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you where he's been
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind
How high does the sycamore grow
If you cut it down then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry
To the blue corn moon
For whether we are white of copper-skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind

Life Is To Be Whole

We always lose our balance in life,We often ask ourselves which is the best,and Spent a lot of time in choosing.But this is very painful,because different choices may decide a different life,and everything is not be able to be changed.

I hope my choice is affirmative,is perfect, there is no regret.But I find it is difficult to know what the future is,I fear my choice is not as I think now.I have been wandering.Matbe no one really knows what should the life be.I have read the following article,Is the hankering for perfection the wrong understanding of life?

Once a circle missed a wedge.The circle wanted to be whole，so it went around looking for its missing piece．But because it was incomplete and therefore could roll only very slowly，it admired the flowers along the way．It chatted with worms．It enjoyed the sunshine．It found lots of different pieces，but none of them fit．So it left them all by the side of the road and kept on searching．Then one day the circle found a piece that fit perfectly．It was so happy．Now it could be whole，with nothing missing．It incorporated the missing piece into itself and began to roll．Now that it was a perfect circle，it could roll very fast，too fast to notice the flowers or talking to the worms．When it realized how different the world seemed when it rolled so quickly，it stopped，left its found piece by the side of the road and rolled slowly away．

The lesson of the story，I suggested，was that in some strange sense we are more whole when we are missing something．The man who has everything is in some ways a poor man．He will never know what it feels like to yearn，to hope，to nourish his soul with the dream of something better．He will never know the experience of having someone who loves him give him something he has always wanted or never had.

There is a wholeness about the person who has come to terms with his limitations，who has been brave enough to let go of his unrealistic dreams and not feel like a failure for doing so．There is a wholeness about the man or woman who has learned that he or she is strong enough to go through a tragedy and survive，who can lose someone and still feel like a complete person．

Life is not a trap set for us by God so that he can condemn us for failing．Life is not a spelling bee，where no matter how many words you've gotten right，you're disqualified if you make one mistake．Life is more like a baseball season，where even the best team loses one－third of its games and even the worst team has its days of brilliance．Our goal is to win more games than we lose．

When we accept that imperfection is part of being human，and when we can continue rolling through life and appreciate it，we will have achieved a wholeness that others can only aspire to．That，I believe，is what God asks of us－－not “Be perfect”，not “Don't even make a mistake”，but “Be whole.”

If we are brave enough to love，strong enough to forgive，generous enough to rejoice in another's happiness，and wise enough to know there is enough love to go around for us all，then we can achieve a fulfillment that no other living creature will ever know．

Love is...

Tiredness

I'm tired, not for work, but life.

I'm tired, not for now, but future.

I'm tired, not for what I have, but what I didn't have.

I'm tired, not for me, but someone else.

I wish I were you,but I'm not.

I thought I am something, in fact I am anything.

If I am..., If I can....

But there is no "if....",there is only fact.

Some Thoughts

I wrote blog has been for some time，but I can not write all what I mean in English completely accurate and correct. Maybe the sentence I wrote will make my foreign friends laugh, or they cann't understand what I mean at all, or can only rely on guess. I am sorry to you! I think something must be done about it.

The following sentences are extracted from the blog of my friend:

-don't think "what if....." Just do it.

-a sense of order makes a lot of difference.

-If you really want something, laziness shouldn't be in your vocabulary.

-Be tough.Do what's necessary.

I can understand them easily,each sentence are simple, there is no uncommon words, no complex structures, they are fluent. But I cann't do it like this.

Where can I go for help?

Come on

Tonight I may have to go to bed early, during this period of time the daily sleep very late and long time sitting in front of computer, today my eyes felt uncomfortable, I would like to rest as soon as possible.

Recently I learn an English song, so during the day I listen to it again and again. This week is about to be ended, this month also will be ended, the time passed really fast.

Today my Canadian friend returned my message, write a lot, even more than the content of my blog. HE HE!

I know she is very busy, a lot of things should to be done, she is a fortitudinous girl. I am at a loss what to say, I am certainly not saying that you should go to sleep and then do other things, as this, she may has bad results which she did not want to happen. However, I do not wish she has only little time to sleep every day, it is harmful for body,and I do not want she becomes a coffee girl. It is very difficult to choose.

This difficult time will be the best memories when she succeed. I can only hope that she take care of herself, at the same time strive to do what should be done, and I hope to hear she say "I finally relaxed!"

Come on,girl!

A joke：Mother Knows the Best

Today,I read a joke.

It was a couple's wedding night,and the bride got all dressed up in her beautiful nightgown and began waiting in bed.But a half an hour,one hour, an hour and a half and then two hours passed by,and her groom was still standing next to the bedroom window,looking at the moon and stars.So she couldn't bear it any longer and said,"Honey,what's the problem? come to bed with me." But the groom said,"No way." And the bride said, "why is that? It's our wedding night." And he replied, "Precisely.My mother told me that this would be the most beautiful nigahe of my whole life, so I don't want miss a minute of it."

I hope every my friend will burst into laughter.Reding joke is a goog way to relieve the oppression of the heart.You can try to do it.

Are you busy

Today we did not have a field work, I listened to songs all day in the office, I finally know the content of the music "sotp stop stop".I like this song.

Today I went to an English language learning website, where has a lot of content, "a song a day" "A sentence a day " , "A joke a day" and so on.I learned a lot knowledge about English,read a few jokes, downloaded several songs. But I like to listen to the "stop stop stop" and the "something deep inside" better.

Today, I saw my friends' blog, they are not updated,I thought they are busy, unlike me, hehe! I fact I am busy too,I'm busy with my English!:) They each belong to liberal and academic camp，（right?!）One will travel to Europe, another is busy with learning.If I can like both of the two,it is great! ha ha ha!

I saw a red sun

Today is very cold ,it was raining afternoon and then begun snowing. We still worked to the field, everyone was wearing a very thick coat.

When we went home the weather turned fine, I saw the sun is very red, it's so beautiful.The sun looks like a round plate, surrounded by red halo. I have never seen such a red sun, just like the color of blood.I am sorry that I did not take pictures for this scenery.

What I have seen is the vast sea, several ships on the sea, the sun in the sea level just like to drop into the sea, and the sun is in between of two mountains.

Today I read a blog of my Canadian friend, she seems a bit trouble. After this,I had a feel in my college. Be busy, agonising and perplexed, hehe.But I think that she is very happy, maybe one day she would feel.

Thank you

I am pleased to make the acquaintance of some foreign friends. Very grateful to the help they gave me, they are very enthusiastic.

I am not a good student, I think, but they always give me some suggestions, maybe too many mistakes to they know what I talk about, but they still read them and leave comments, which gave me great drive.

I learned from them not only English but also thinking.Reading their blog, I can understand more foreign culture.Although we have engaged in different occupations, but some of their views and attitude is worth learning.

You are my good teachers, thank you!:）

Youth

Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life.

　　Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over the love of ease. This often exists in a man of 60 more than a boy of 20. Nobody grows old merely by a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals.

　　Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.

　　Whether 60 or 16, there is in every human being’s heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing childlike appetite for what’s next and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station: so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the Infinite, so long are you young.

　　When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at 20; but as long as your aerials are up, to catch waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at 80.

You have a choice

You have a choice I woke up early today, excited over all I get to do before the clock strikes midnight. I have responsibilities to fulfill today. I am important.

My job is to choose what kind of day I am going to have.

Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.

Today I can fell sad that I don’t have more money or I can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste.

Today I can grumble about my health or I can rejoice that I am alive.

Today I can lament over all that my parents didn’t give me when I was growing up or I can feel grateful that they allowed me to be born.

Today I can cry because roses have thorns or I can celebrate that thorns have roses.

Today I can mourn my lack of friends or I can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationships.

Today I can murmur dejectedly because I have to do housework or I can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter for my mind, body and soul.

Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped. And here I am, the sculptor who gets to do the shaping.

What today will be like is up to me. I get to choose what kind of day I will have!

Knowledge just as money

Our knowledge is always inadequate just as we always have no enough money to spend.

When I acquired new knowledge, I would be very happy, just like I was given a sum of money.

But knowledge is accumulated, no one can become knowledgeable overnight, it was like no one could become a millionaire overnight in the world.

Did you have such a feeling which is to spend a long time to calculated a mathematical title? It is happy, exciting.

Maybe you will be happy for learned a beautiful English sentences.

The world has become wonderful and always interesting because of knowledge.

I think I am reveling in it.

Interpunction

Yesterday is "." Today is "!" Tomorrow is "?"

………………………CHOOSE………………………

Nothing

Every night I opened the blog, and would like to write some of what happened, whether it is happy or not happy, but I always can't think of what can be written. One day later, it seems that nothing has happened. I sleep six hours a day, I think I can do a lot of things in the rest of the time , but I can not recall anything to me.what can I write for today?

Sometimes I do not know in what I am busy, Contract? Report? Or other things?

Learning math is interesting,but I can not do it when I go to work,this is the most painful,this means that I always do some things I do not like.In the school,we can discuss with each other,that learning atmosphere is relaxed, and also be conducive to our progress.

If you have a lot of things should to do,but when you find you did nothing some time later,you have wasted a lot of time, this is very regrettable.

Are you confused? Are you tired? Please calm down and think about your yesterday, your today and your tomorrow!!!!!!

Fatigue

Sitting in front of the computer and typing on the chair, I will be asleep, and I have worked in the field all day today, I was too tired.

But there is a report has not been finished, I must hand over it to the higher-up tomorrow morning.

I have not completed today's study program.

I hate overtime. Spirit will crumble, I would like to sleep, how do I do?

Living, working and learning

I often feel confused for living, Sometimes I feel tired. Sometimes I feel that life is waste time, recalled all things be done during the day before sleeping, I always find today is a blank, rarely find valuable things.

I spend most of my time on working,But I often encounter some unpleasant things, I would resent my work, want to get out of this work, but I do not know what I can do.I often feel anxiety and fatigue because I can not solve some problems in life.

Learning!Learning!Learning! What I need most is learning!

One day in the life

Today,it is cold.

Today is the first day of the weekend.

We have to go to work tomorrow.

Today, China closed the Google blog server.

Today, I accompanied a colleague to the centre of city.

Today, I am perplexed.

Today, I cut hair.

Today, I washed clothes.

Today is very insipid.

A surviving dream

With the passage of time, I left the University has been a long time, the period of Postgraduate Entrance Examination review also has pasted a long time.

I eventually had to work, but I did not want. I would like to study at Peking University and then can go to Harvard, that was my dream. For me, perhaps it is not very easy to achieve, but I believe that as long as there are dreams, everything is possible, of course, I need to work on. Recently,there are a lot of problems feazed me. Whether the work, since work, I found that the desire to achieve has become more difficult, because I have to consider other factors.But I still aspire to achieve that dream, when I was lonely, helpless, only it can make me excited, and let me stand up after failure.

This is my only dream，my life's dream that will never changed.However, before this, no matter how difficult it is, I will have to study hard for tomorrow. This is not just talking about it, I will always admonished myself, “show your action!”

A trivial matter

The day before yesterday evening, the boss let me prepare an exploration report and sent to the Project Manager next morning. I dealt with a lot of data and spent a long time before the finished report. But when the director examined the report yesterday morning, he said there is a data small somewhat, he is very angry, he complained about me, accused me. Then he left my office, and ignored me.He did not give me any instructions, how do I do?I have told him that I can amend the data, after all, only the data is not a very satisfactory. But he used very tough tone to say that today we have to work, which means that he could not give me time to revise data.It seems that I must bear all the consequences brought by the small mistake.

After he left, I think I still have to amend that data, whether there is enough time, I must also endeavor to complete.I was given the cold shoulder in the office, I use the fastest speed repeated every step, perhaps God help those who do not give up easily. Before we start, I completed a new report, I told directo the final result, he has made smile, a lot of calm, no longer just as irascible.

Later, I always thought this matter, although this is a small thing, it shows a truth.We should strive to do every thing, never give up easily, any opportunities are created by ourselves.

A tired day

Today, I am tired, our task is to do resistivity sounding and Rayleigh wave exploration in a landslide areas. We start at 7:30 AM and come back until 5:00 PM.

The place where we worked is a Rock Hill, above the trees and long grass, huge rocks exposed ground, the tree leaves turn yellow, and all the leaves on the ground. It is very difficult to walk in the hurstis, especially with the apparatus. We are very easy to scratched by branches and the tree has thorns, it is easy to be stabbed.Tomorrow we will continue to complete the remaining tasks, I think it will also be a tired day .

Make mistakes time and again

Recently, all measurement reports of bore are compiled by me.But I often make some mistakes in the report. Every time when I compile the report I should deal with a lot of data and most of them are based on experience, I always be very careful, I have a little tension, I fear make mistakes.

Today, when I print out a report to the Director, a data is error, although I was very carefull this time. The Director is very angry, I told him that I could re-do it again, of course, it is very troublesome.Finally he said that I should not rework, but I still felt regretful for the mistake.

I found that when you do one thing, the tenser you are the easier to make mistakes.

In fact, happiness is very simple

This morning, a friend said she and her boyfriend breaking up, and she is very sad.

This evening, a friend called me from start to finish crying constantly, she said she was desperate, until the call ended, she also did not say why, should I listen to her cry?

In fact, we have no reason to grief. Or because a small failures and setbacks and unhappy. Failures and setbacks is a happy, they let us set new goals and start a new effort, without them, we will never feel the joy after less than successful, and can not feel happy life is precious.

We should not despair, should not be sad, we need courage.We need courage and determination to face the difficulties and overcome difficulties.When we lonely, think about our friends, our families, we are not alone. We have a lot to be done, life is good, a lot of good things waiting for us to create.

On the contrary, there are many things in life worth We are pleased, for example, today I finished a working alone, I saw other people's comments to me, and today I share some of her day, I am very happy. They came from another place of the earth, we separated by oceans, our dialogue is to transcend space, Are these not worth our happy?

what are they doing now

When I was alone, I always wanted to know what are other people doing at the moment, they may live in the other half of the Earth, another country or any other place. I would like to have a pair of eyes to see what the two far apart are doing in the same moment, they could be different countries, different nationalities, different ethnic origin. Here is the winter, there maybe is the autumn or the summer, today, it is sun here, maybe there is in the rain, here is just darkness, there may already very late, people may have a rest.

I felt I lost something, no, it should be said that I do not have something, I have a feeling of regret, it is a very strange feeling. I want to know what they are doning now!

Today

Today I was a little bit pleased, China lifted on the Google blog server blockade this afternoon. I can freely open each of the blog, of course, including mine, I have found the kind of feeling of freedom. This increased the interest I wrote blog, because I have seen the hope to continue. Maybe this is also temporary, at least today, I felt the joy of easily browse.

But today I am also a bit unhappy, I would like to know if everyone's feelings are cyclical fluctuations. Load test to be done tomorrow, I must go. I have came to units three months, but I only had three full weekends. In the past few months the largest we have done is load test, followed by seismic image, but I am more familiar with the high-density resistivity method, but this method we used very little.

The evening, I met a university classmates on the QQ, she is now a graduate student in Shanghai, but it seems that she does not like that place. I have always wanted to go there at night to see the overpass and the airport, where China's most prosperous cities, in addition to Hong Kong. But I wanted to go to places that most New York, hope that one day I can go there.

Winter will come soon

The weather is more and more cold, in the office, I also felt my hands are cold. I have not seen snow a few years, the winter of the north is unlike the south, where the temperature is higher than the north, it colud be rain some time, and leaves are green.

From the South to the North only three months to winter, I began to fear cold. Although there is Heating in the indoor and outdoor temperature is very low, we are reluctant to a field. If there are projects to be done outside, we will be forced to a field, but compared to a few months before the number will go out less and less.

During the day in the office can also insist, by the evening I am the only one, I feel particularly cold, but I have a lot of things to be done,so I always go back to sleep very late. Sometimes I really want to go back to sleep in a warm blanket, but I need to finish all things today, tomorrow will be a new day, I am pleased to see that every day has a satisfactory end , I think to develop a good habit is very important. At any time we will be successful because of good habits.

A friend of mine

This guy is my college classmates, we spent in the same quarters four years, we had been sleeping in the upper layer, and we are facing the bedside, he was my best friend in college.

We are most familiar. Because there are many stories between us, Perhaps there is some similarity between us. What character or the other, All in all I think he is a good guy.

He worked in Haikou, and I came to his hometown. There are always a lot of puzzling things in the life, like he and me.

He likes to play basketball, he was black, like stars in the NBA, that is his pursuit.His life is very simple, sometimes feel that he did not seem to be asked, perhaps he always put all the things on the mind. But more often he looked very casual, very relaxed.

Ant the time in the university I often asked him to help, I will be happy to help him, but also some different between us, his life and my life is just a crossover, but I love this friend, and never lost.